I am an idiot!!

Today was the first day of vacation bible school and I had a total meltdown. I went into it thinking that is was going to be easy and I was wrong. Due to some major miscommunication I was not prepared to teach my class. I know it was all my fault. I misunderstood the directions. Anyway, I totally melted down and ran into the bathroom. I left my twins to anyone who would watch them while I tried to pull it together. I'm not going to lie. I lost it. Thank God for Deborah who came into the bathroom, picked me up off the floor, and prayed for me. She helped me pull it together. I wiped my tears, sucked it up, and went out there to teach my class. It went pretty well. Tomorrow will go much better. I love to help with VBS but this is the first year I have had a teaching position. Normally I stay in the background and help. It's a big step for me. I am putting myself out there. Even if it's for 3, 4, and 5 year olds, I am doing it. I know I can do better and I will do better. The kids deserve it.