my little demon

I have been fighting a battle with myself for a long time. I hear this little voice inside my head telling me that I don't fit in. That they don't want me around. I fight this everytime I decide to get close to someone and I was ready to let my guard down and get close to people at church. That little voice started eating at me again. I really let it get to me. It was eating me up. I am so tired of letting my guard down and getting my heart stomped on. There is no one in my life that hasn't stomped on my heart. Walmart was the last one. They put me through the ringer. It was so painful. I finally told someone how I was feeling. They completely understood and are helping me through it. I feel so much better. I will beat this little demon. He will not come up at me again. I am ready to commit to these new friendships and I will not listen to the little voice anymore.