Having a rough go of it.

This week has been absolutely horrible. It started out ok but quickly came to a grinding halt when my husband decided to leave me on Tuesday. I am heartbroken and my kids are so sad. Brittney and Daniel are actually so stressed they are gettnig sick. He is being so selfish. He is hurting our family. I know he is coming back but just having to wait on him to "be ready" is not fun. I am trying to stay strong for my kids but it is hard.

My friend, Jenny, has been helping me out the last couple of days. i could not have made it through this without her. She has really stepped up as a friend. I am so grateful! We have been deep cleaning the house. It needs to be done. I have just let it go so much. It is just become so over whelming. I know I have put things off and put things off.

It has been 3 days of hell mixed with lots of tears and rage. I just want everything to be over and things to go back to normal. Who know when that will happen. My kids need their dad and I need my husband. Our family needs to stay together. I keep praying and praying. I will just have to wait for God to do his will in this situation.

Snow days of 2010

We have been stuck in our home for 3 days. It rarely snows in Arkansas but when it does, it really does! It was so beautiful! The kids actually got to make a snowman for the first time and it will be a memory they will never forget. This is the first winter in about 15 years I haven't been so homesick for Utah. Usually we don't have much of a winter down here which is quite different from where I grew up in Utah. White christmases every year. Snow from November to April sometimes. This has just been such a blessed time for me. My husband has even had some time off so we have spent these few days together as a family. That is very rare for us. We are alway going off in different directions.

I do believe God has blessed me with the winter patch. I am not kidding! I can really get depressed right around January because i miss the winter weather. Call me crazy, call me what ever you want but this is a blessing to me. I posted a picture of the kids and their snowman. What a memory this will alway be!

I'M BAAAACK!!!!

Wow! It has been about a year and a half since I have posted anything on this blog! Wow Have things changed!
Well, Brittney is now 10 and a sassy 5th grader. She had a very rough 4 th grade year but is doing so much better this year. She is growing up so fast. It almost scares me. I just want her to stay a child but society wants her to grow up now. It is quite a battle with us. She is a good kid, though!

Lainey is now in the 1st grade. She is having issues. She cannot stop talking in class! She get in trouble a minimum of 5 times a day. I don't know what to do with her. I am praying God will give me the solution before her teacher loses her mind! She is 7 now and is really in a transition stage in her life. We are working on it.

Macey and Daniel are now 3. Boy, are they a handful! So sweet, though. Danny loves to sit and cluddle with me in the mornings. Macey likes to be left alone for a little bit so she can get awake. They are in their 2nd year of Carpenter's Kids. We were hoping this would be the last but since the state of Arkansas is changing the date to start school to August 15, we don't know if they will be able to start pre-k next year. We are just waiting to see what happens there.

A lot has changed in my life in the last 18 months. Too much to blog about. There has been good and bad. I do a lot of praying to keep me going everyday. I am planning to start a new diet and exercise program on Monday. I need to lose weight so badly. I will probably blog about it more. I need this outlet. I am going to finish watching Conan OBrian's last tonight show and then go to bed. Talk more later!