the heat is getting to me!!

Ok, It has been over 100 degrees for the last few weeks and that means my kids can't go outside and play. We have no shade so they must stay inside. Due to high gas prices we can't go out a whole lot. Mostly just to church on Sunday and Wednesday. Maybe a trip to Walmart. In other words, I have been trapped in this house with four kids and I am going insane!! School starts in 2 weeks and I cannot wait!! My mom is coming to get all 4 and take them home with her next week and I cannot wait!! I haven't had any time away from my kids in-wow-I can't remember. The trip to mom's will be the 1st time the twins have been away from me for more than a few hours. I have no time to myself. I feel like a horrible mom because I want time away from the kids. I don't even know who I am anymore. I got lost in this shuffle of family life. How is that? How do you lose your identity in your own family? Will I ever find myself again or is that being selfish? I don't have a clue!! I love my children with all my heart but I have to find a way to find who Raegan is again so I can be the best mom I can be.